I'm mad...

Yes, this post is also out of desperation. I confess it forehand.

I’m a piano string, waiting for the right musician to gently strike the key, so that I can sing the happiest song ever. Whenever I feel like, I’ve met the right musician to strike the key, I go wrong.

Hmmm…. This is a bit symbolic. Let me be straight. I am so much infatuated with this girl that I’m feeling to write something. “Tonight, I can write the saddest lines – Pablo Neruda” Listening to the pain filled piano music, don’t expect me to write something funny.

I know this is just an infatuation. I know this will not lead me anywhere. Still I’m feeling something for her. I cannot get rid of it. I’ve tried, prayed and done everything possible in this respect. Still I can’t.

I feel like speaking to her. I’ve not done it. I’ve looked at her and tried locking our eyes as I’ve read it in some love tips that, it will help to… you know what I mean…

I don’t actually know if she’s read my eyes, or is it written in my eyes that I’m attracted by someone’s charm? She always tries to go away when we are to come closer. Do my eyes ask “hey lady, wait, y did you cause me an infatuation?” Why else does this happen? She escapes my looks as if I’m going to digest her with my eyes. I’m troubled.

I know that I cannot make a love story with this girl in the lead role. I know that she can never be my dream girl. Reasons are many. [I’m not discussing it here]. Then why am I doing this? The question is pretty logical and it comes to my mind frequently. But nowadays such questions are buffered and never allowed to process.

This girl is not so beautiful, but not too bad. She is just having the right key to drive me a bit mad. But I won’t do that. I hold fast to my principles.

Why is my mind so strange in this field? It always has so much love to give it to someone.

Whatever it is, I’ve enjoyed this so called love once in my life. It was in the air for a month. Then back to normal. “Hello brother, how are you?” Why cheat me? I think, it is since then that I started producing more love in my heart.

And now I’m confused. I don’t know what is confusing me.

NB:- this post was done on the day before yesterday. Yesterday was a good day and I talked to my best friend about this and then js overcame my hard feelings...